This year was this first Christmas without my parents, and the thought of it, the build up, would make me crumble inside. Christmas time is a important time for me; a time where my family would come together and be merry. To forget about all the bad times of the year, to just enjoy and … More Christmas Day/eve
Yesterday got to me, but today even more. A constant reflection of how things are going, how I wish things were, or how different my life is, or would be. I miss my parents incredibly. The constant love from my mother, and the only person I could randomly talk to on the phone, feeling safe … More Thinking about life..
We struck a New Moon last Wednesday and I don’t know what it is, whether it’s these happy pills I’ve been taking (St John’s wort), whether I’m just letting go to be kinder to myself, or whether it was indeed the mini trip that did it, but I’ve been better than I have for a … More Realism slow but steady
So quick update from my previous post. ..I got cold feet. I didn’t go ahead to sign the contract to move out to live with what might be great people, in a new town full of adventures. I asked myself what had I become; not taking this wonderful opportunity (but to be honest the room … More What do I fear?
Finally, it’s becoming real. Learning from last years ‘failure’ of job hunting, I’ve decided to change strategies and first move out. Tomorrow is signing day. I am nervous. It’s a fresh start, something I’ve been waiting for for a long time. A nervous excitement perhaps, but if I’m not ready now, I don’t think I’ll … More The next stage
Today has been …. A reminder. It’s been an alright day. I forced myself out of bed earlier than I normally get up. I ate good breakfast and exercise. Then I did my work, and exercised some more. I’d say it has been an achievement, because it has been more than I have made myself … More Reminded