Today is my 25th birthday. This marks a another wakening in my life; the last most vivid was when I was 16, something randomly suddenly clicked and then the mind changes. Today wasn’t another random click, but more of a help from my love. Since I left university and home ridden with all the love … More Awoke.
Yesterday got to me, but today even more. A constant reflection of how things are going, how I wish things were, or how different my life is, or would be. I miss my parents incredibly. The constant love from my mother, and the only person I could randomly talk to on the phone, feeling safe … More Thinking about life..
There is a time for everything. There is a time for writing this, this that I have been meaning to stumble the right moment to do. There is a time for things. …for things I dream to do. I believe everything happens for a reason. Life teaches us lessons until we learn enough and overcome … More There is a time for everything
Recently I’ve been getting more frequent headaches. I guess it’s from all the not so ‘stress’ I’ve been getting. I’ve tried so hard. What does life want me to do!???! I no longer feel at home in my own home. It feels like a hostel. My parents like housemates, or not even that. I am … More Headache…?
A recurring theme in my posts is the need to be understood. Through my journey, I have understood that I no longer need to search for the need to be loved, for loving myself is enough. However, I am yet to discover, the equivalent for the need to be understood. Is it that I do … More Ill
From when we were born, we were controlled. Instructed. Told what to do. Told not what to do, to eat, drink, wear etc. Laws are to keep us safe, I won’t question that. My problem is that we, I, have been conditioned. Conditioned to follow instructions. To not feel, feel my inner self telling me … More A child’s mind trapped inside an adults world
Today is not one of those days. It is more than one of those days. Today I woke up, with a sudden lost. A feeling of difficulty. Without a plan, wanting to get away from it all for just one day. I read back, told myself ‘It’s fine, it’s just one of those days’. I did what … More Holding on for too long….but staying strong