Why do I do this to myself? Why do I do this to you? Is there any meaning to this? I love you. Love is the uncontrollable feeling one gives to you. Not being able to control your thoughts of love, no being able to control your actions of love. To give up and sacrifice … More Why the hurt?
Due to the considerable amount of changes and lessons this year, I have been slacking on my reviews and grounding of life. There is one month left of this year, and it has been a hell of a ride. I’ll leave the whole shabam for when the year ends. Now is an update/a grounded of … More Update 23/11/2016
Yesterday got to me, but today even more. A constant reflection of how things are going, how I wish things were, or how different my life is, or would be. I miss my parents incredibly. The constant love from my mother, and the only person I could randomly talk to on the phone, feeling safe … More Thinking about life..
There is a time for everything. There is a time for writing this, this that I have been meaning to stumble the right moment to do. There is a time for things. …for things I dream to do. I believe everything happens for a reason. Life teaches us lessons until we learn enough and overcome … More There is a time for everything
This is the question I had always asked myself. And on the evening underground, my new found friend had asked me ‘Who are you?’. I gave a half-hearted laugh, my eyes lit and I smiled. This is the question. I did so, because I finally know the answer. I composed myself and answered:’That’s a deep question’. … More Who am I ? …I am, You are special
We struck a New Moon last Wednesday and I don’t know what it is, whether it’s these happy pills I’ve been taking (St John’s wort), whether I’m just letting go to be kinder to myself, or whether it was indeed the mini trip that did it, but I’ve been better than I have for a … More Realism slow but steady
Finally, it’s becoming real. Learning from last years ‘failure’ of job hunting, I’ve decided to change strategies and first move out. Tomorrow is signing day. I am nervous. It’s a fresh start, something I’ve been waiting for for a long time. A nervous excitement perhaps, but if I’m not ready now, I don’t think I’ll … More The next stage