Yesterday got to me, but today even more. A constant reflection of how things are going, how I wish things were, or how different my life is, or would be. I miss my parents incredibly. The constant love from my mother, and the only person I could randomly talk to on the phone, feeling safe … More Thinking about life..
There is a time for everything. There is a time for writing this, this that I have been meaning to stumble the right moment to do. There is a time for things. …for things I dream to do. I believe everything happens for a reason. Life teaches us lessons until we learn enough and overcome … More There is a time for everything
This is the question I had always asked myself. And on the evening underground, my new found friend had asked me ‘Who are you?’. I gave a half-hearted laugh, my eyes lit and I smiled. This is the question. I did so, because I finally know the answer. I composed myself and answered:’That’s a deep question’. … More Who am I ? …I am, You are special
We struck a New Moon last Wednesday and I don’t know what it is, whether it’s these happy pills I’ve been taking (St John’s wort), whether I’m just letting go to be kinder to myself, or whether it was indeed the mini trip that did it, but I’ve been better than I have for a … More Realism slow but steady
Finally, it’s becoming real. Learning from last years ‘failure’ of job hunting, I’ve decided to change strategies and first move out. Tomorrow is signing day. I am nervous. It’s a fresh start, something I’ve been waiting for for a long time. A nervous excitement perhaps, but if I’m not ready now, I don’t think I’ll … More The next stage
So my final choice. …I guess I could say I wish I had taken, kinda. It was an opportunity, but also a sacrifice. Now it is over, I found that, I didn’t need to sacrifice anything at all, that I could of gone ahead. .. but my final decision was good, all the same. I … More Decision
Today is not one of those days. It is more than one of those days. Today I woke up, with a sudden lost. A feeling of difficulty. Without a plan, wanting to get away from it all for just one day. I read back, told myself ‘It’s fine, it’s just one of those days’. I did what … More Holding on for too long….but staying strong