Dear God. I really really want to be happy for the rest of my life with my best friend, my boyfriend, my fiancé, my husband, my soul mate. But i have hurt him so so so so bad tonight. And I don’t think I can ever forgive myself. I want to be with him forever … More Why, where is our future
Yesterday, I said to myself, I should care more… but then I thought, maybe it is just because I’m tired, .. and I let it go. This morning, I woke up and got ready to go to work, a thought appeared that I really didn’t want to go, but I immediately dismissed the thought with … More Where has my heart gone…?
Busy busy bee, rushed off my feet. Head in the clouds, feeling so high. An adrenaline rush through my veins. I long for my chilled memories, but I don’t want to come down. Keep going, I tell myself. And suddenly. I . stop. Hit. Hit me just like that. Wanting a moment to catch up … More Be true. Don’t give me time to think
I’m 23. Yet we all know that age doesn’t mean a thing. Being cotton wooled most of my life means I followed instructions and did as I was told because those things protected me. However, all those things meant that I couldn’t think for myself. It meant that I didn’t know what to do when … More Becoming an Adult
Three days, Three places. I took control, and gave myself the much needed break I deserve. First stop Plymouth. The place I love most in the world. You have the sun and the sea. The first thing I always do is go head straight up the hill and lie down to enjoy the world go … More Home? ..Wanderlust
A strange feeling. I’m trying to understand my situation, and what I’m suppose to do for me right now. It’s a strange feeling because I’m numb in a different way. Before, I was numb from pain and isolation etc, that would hurt and I would cry. I wouldn’t say I’ve got used to it. I … More Current feeling
From when we were born, we were controlled. Instructed. Told what to do. Told not what to do, to eat, drink, wear etc. Laws are to keep us safe, I won’t question that. My problem is that we, I, have been conditioned. Conditioned to follow instructions. To not feel, feel my inner self telling me … More A child’s mind trapped inside an adults world