I feel pain. Pain in my heart. A pain from the lack of love. I sent my boyfriend away from me. It is impossible to continue to be in that environment, where we bring the worst out of each other. And I wonder. This pain I feel. I feel like it should be because I … More Why I’m feeling like this?

Bitterness. Pain. They say in life nothing lasts forever – yet why is it I should give myself happiness. In this life I’ve only given my all to 3 people, and those people are no longer here. It makes sense to me that love only causes pain. I don’t want to feel bitter or pain. … More Bitterness

YAAAAAAAYYYYYY!!!! I. AM. HAPPY!!!!!! I just want to congrate myself in finding my sunshine again. And anything else that has contributed. I haven’t updated in a while. All I have to say right now is that I found my sunshine, my sparkle, and most importantly,…. .. .. I smile so much more naturally. I just … More I found my sunshine ☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️

Today is the official date of our break up. Monday was me wanting to have a break. Today was enough. The scenario was this. I was middle of sleeping. I heard him go to the toilet. He asked me can we talk. I said in 10 mins, as I was resting/sleeping. And he said no … More Monday 18th June. Official

So my colleague offered me something to drink.. I thought I’ll be nice for the evening. Despite avoiding the substance, since my last encounter during working hours. And as I thought. It has made me ‘depressed’. Alcohol, is a supressant. An inhibitor. Bringing out the feelings. I’m ok. My colleague helps me by at night, … More Wine and embrace

Right now I feel happy. I feel I can be myself. I finished work. And I’m hiding at the back of reception as I do. But tonight. I decided not to dwell on today. Today. I put on the best music I know and took it to my heart. I don’t care that I’m partying … More Happy

Today I woke up stressed. I woke up a bit late. And didn’t have time to go for my morning run. Even my colleague said to me smile and tried to make me laugh. Everyone here is nice, and smiles, most enough people anyway. It’s a good thing, that every corner I go, there is … More Thursday 14 June

We have now become aquatainces. Coming and going after work. Saying the necessary. Hi. And bye. And sharing a small light hearted information. For me it’s nice in a way. To start from the beginning. But I cannot say that because he cannot, as we are heartbroken, as it will not be the same. Unfortunately. … More Two days after

‘ Heartbroken. Heartbroken. Heartbroken. I want to cry until I’m blind. Until I’m dehydrated and nothing left to cry, yet I will continue to cry. ‘ My thoughts on the Monday morning. What happened was this. We woke up. He was leaving to go to work. He looked back and paused, a little longer than … More Monday 11 June. Finito